Our official diagnosis..... When we went in Thursday for our ultrasound they saw the same thing they saw the previous week. A gestational sac measuring only 4weeks 6 days with no baby in it. Sad..... very, very sad. I feel horrible for M&G... it seems we have just faced one disappointment after another in this entire year we have been working together. But M and I are both tough and both determined. We will pick ourselves up and look towards the next try.
Right now however we are still a bit in limbo because I am technically "waiting to miscarry". I have two options now that I have stopped the medications and that is to wait for it to pass naturally which could take several weeks, or to have a D&C. I have made an appointment with my OB on July 7th, while I would prefer to pass it naturally I also don't want this to drag on forever so I have decided that if it has not passed by that time then I will set up the D&C. I have started spotting quite a bit already and I am hoping that means my body is realizing now that the meds are gone that there is nothing in there worth holding on to. We shall see what happens in the next couple weeks..
After we put this behind us I would have to guess that we will be looking at anywhere between the end of August to possibly even October for our next try. It depends on how regular my cycle ends up being (if they dont put me on birth control which they haven't for the previous frozen transfer). It also depends on how many cycles the RE will want me to have before we transfer again.
We do have 10 embryos frozen. I think 5 of those are HIP (high implantation potential). They are frozen in vials of two and I think this upcoming time M is greatly considering transferring 2 to increase our chances at success. I am TOTALLY on board with that and hope it is what they decide. I know she needs to discuss it with G before they make any decisions, but I really think at this point it's our best bet. I know it greatly increases the chance of twins, but she needs to weigh that vs the fact that frozen transfers do have a slightly lower success rate, and the fact that this is our fourth cycle. I don't ask about the financial aspect of things but I can only imagine how expensive another cycle is going to be....
I must keep the faith. The RE has said that the fact that every time we have actually transferred an embryo that I have gotten a positive pregnancy test is great news. My body is accepting the embryos and certainly trying. These early losses are nearly ALWAYS caused by a chromosomal problem with the embryo. I can say that I still feel guilty, even though my brain knows it's not my fault. I just want so badly to give M&G a baby, I was hoping this time I was going to succeed.
But we won't give up..... As M and I just keep telling each other... "We'll get there."
Grant growing up!!
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